Since Tony has fallen asleep,

or atleast so I hope.

Stupid boy, 

please let me know you're okay, as soon as possible.

Anyhow, since he's asleep

and I got no money on my phone, curses,

I can't talk with the blueeyed girl either

soooo, I'm bored.

Which means only one thing -

I've started talking to weird people, about weird things.

Not that I mind, it's really great.

But if anyone should start talking with me while I'm doing this

I better explane some things to you -

If I would start yabbing about some sort of  suits, and you're not the famous jabberwockey, don't even bother asking. 'Cause you'll only get even more lost. To know my mind is to be a part of my mind,

and you don't wanna go there.

And I don't want you there right now.

I've just got the blue hamsters to be nice to the other birds,

and let me tell you, that's taken a while.

(See what I mean?)

Anyway,

I got a penis. Wanna see? Well, you can't.

'Cause I don't have one. But I do.

You should avoid things like that too,

since I'll probebly just try and cyber-rape you.

Surprise buttsecks, ftw.

And the pickles..

HAVE YOU BEEN UP IN MY WISHINGTREE? 

I just raped the jabberwockey, ah mah gah.

And now I have to play with my penis, darn.

Well, I did get warned.

What was I doing..Oh right.

EVIL, I HATE BLUSHING.

Am I the only one missing Michael Jackson?

'Cause I'm bad.

Have you ever wondered why the Simpsons are yellow and not green?

I have, I mean

they're not very matture, so shouldn't they be green?

My name is Blanket, do you want to play with me?

God I hope my pills will kick in soon, so I can sleep.

NOES, THEY WILL TAKE MY KIDDNIES.

I just got huged, I feel violated.

Tomorrow's friday, I hate that song, I mean, what the firetruck?

THEY'RE HERE.

Okayokayokay,

back to what I was doing.

Hm, what was I doing..

THEN HE WADDLED AWAY, WADDLE WADDLE.

Since, it doesn't matter if you love him

or capital H I M.

Yeah, think about that for a while.

I still feel violated, hm.

Last warning - this text is compleatly meaningless, I was supposed to warn you, but I can't remember what I was supposed to warn you about. 

So, I'm gonna stop now.

If I can.
OH MY GOSH, TONY ANSWERED.

HE WASN'T ASLEEP, OR DEAD.

Or was he? DUUN DUUN.

Well, he's back now.

And the jabberwockey is my slave, crawling for me.

Now I shall sleep, and wait for the girl with the blue eyes to apear.

Magic. 

Okej, 

jag suger på att uppdatera 

men har haft så mycket att göra det senaste. Förlåt.

Här får ni iallafall ett smakprov på min urusla humor.

Blanda det bästa bandet genom tiderna med lite yankee jokes -

And I sware, I'm laughing my head off. 

Måste bara hälsa till Tony nu när jag ändå håller på.

Important shit happening.

Gubben,

jag är så jävla lycklig för din skull.

Jag visste att du skulle klara det,

men fyfan vilken lycka jag kände när jag fick veta resultatet.

Började gråta direkt.

För jag vet hur mycket du har kämpat för det här.

Du har verkligen lagt ned blod svett och tårar i detta,

och nu äntligen,

ä n t l i g e n får du ditt pris.

Du förtjänar det bästa, och det vet du.

Därför är det inte konstigt att det gick som det gick,

men ändå. 

Nu,

ska jag lova

att stå vid din sida genom hela den här tiden.
Jag ska göra allt för att du ska ha det bra.

För det är så det ska vara. Efter allt du har gått igenom.

Älskar dig,

min andra hälft.

Kärlek.

P.s

Drive around. 

The Big Bang Theory, enda anledningen till varför jag faktiskt har k v a r min TV. Humorn är klockren, skådespelarna är underbara & handlingen blir a l d r i g tråkig. 10/10.
 Love.

Första bilden på den efterlängtade bebisen.

Mamma har fått en till dotter,

jag är inte ensam längre.

Konkurans? 

Btw,

Coffy (min hund)

blev så satans avundsjuk när jag skulle hålla i henne

så hon fick vara med.

Hon är så mammig.

"Hey, are you o-"

Tom got quiet when he saw his brothers hand moving slow, his eyelids twiched a bit and soon he could stare into his brothers dark and almost sparkling eyes, feeling some sort of relive.
Bill had been moving the hole night, Tom figured he'd been dreaming.
"You scared me..did you have a bad dream?"
his brother closed his eyes and he thought he could see a hint smile spreading over his lips.
Tom felt a warm string go through his spine, but he couldn't really understand why.
"Bad dream..very, bad"

 Bill mumbled and pulled his hand up to Tom's face, draging his fingertips down his cheek.
"Did you sleep well?"

Tom swallowed light and crawled back under the covers, leaning his head back into the pillows again as he said dull
"Yeah..I think so. I spend half the night watching you sleep..but I guess I must have fallen asleep, 'cause I don't remember anything."
Bill opened his eyes again, glancing all over Tom. There was something new, like some sort of shine covering his skin.
"Watching me sleep? Why would you do that..?"
He got up against Tom, putting his face only inches away from his brothers.
Tom shivered a bit when he felt Bill's bare skin against his chest, and tried to sound neutral
"Did I say that out loud?"
His little brother chuckled soft and Tom could feel his soft hair falling down over his shoulders.
He let his eyes wonder over Bill's neck..following his throat..until they got fixed on his clear collarbones.
"I enjoy it.."

Bill grined a bit and pulled a finger through Tom's hair.
"You do realise you sound like some sort of cheap imitation of twilight now..right?"

The older one of them chuckled dull and took a deep breath
"Not only did you call me cheap, but now I'm a imitation of a sparkling silly vampire too? Thank you."

Bill laughed soft and got ontop of him, making his nosetip touch Tom's.
They stayed like that for a while
breathing eachothers air,
sharing heartbeats
listening to the time wonder..
The light that came in from the big window soon got brighter, and with it a sound of traffic.
"But I must say..watching you like this is way more..interesting."

Bill smiled light, his eyes got fixed on Tom's lips.
He remembered how soft they had felt. How his tounge had made them wet, along with his own.
They heard a vibrating coming from somewhere under all of the clothes that laid tossed down on the floor.
Tom sighed and glanced into his eyes again
"I really don't want to get that.."

Bill didn't speak, he barely breathed.
Feeling his heart skip a beat he leaned closer to Tom, letting their lips nudge.
He closed his eyes and waited for his brother to reply..
Tom gasped light when he felt that wonderful string again, staring at his brothers closed eyes as he pressed their lips tighter together.
He slowly spread them a bit, letting out warm breath before he gently got his tounge into Bill's mouth.
The younger one of them made a little sound
but didn't make any resistance. He only parted his lips even more, letting Tom's kiss get more intence.
After a while Bill felt comfortable enough to let his tounge touch Tom's, his fingers started to tremble soft and if they hadn't been in the bed, he would probebly have fallen down. 'Cause his legs felt like gelly.
Tom got one of his hands up behind Bill's head, curling his fingers into his hair.
The kiss lasted long, neither of them wanted to make it stop.
When their lips finaly parted Bill looked down at his brother.
"This is by far the best way of waking up.."

Tom chuckled light and kissed his cheek, he couldn't help but to smile..
"We should get dressed."

Bill suddenly got up, away from Tom. Leaving him cold, his brothers warmth started to vanish.
He tried to think of something smart to say, but could he really ask him to stay there with him?
His little brother turned to him,
standing straight infront of him with only his boxers on. Tom glanced over his body..
So slim, everything, perfect.
"I would have wanted to stay here..with you. But we have soundcheck today, remember?"

Tom swallowed hard, of course. How could he have forgotten that?
"Yeah, I'll go to my room. Will you be okay on your own?"

Bill smiled soft and came up to Tom as he too stood up.
"Don't worry..there will be people here soon to help me with my clothes..hair..and makeup, you know."

Tom grined a bit, atleast he wouldn't be alone.
"I don't want you to go though.."

that was what he wanted to hear, those words made him all warm inside.
Putting his arms around Bill, Tom leaned his head against his brothers shoulder, kissing his skin light.
"I'll see you soon."

Tom pressed Bill a bit closer..letting his lips touch his forhead before he slowly got away and walked against the door.
"I lo...bye, Bill."

as Tom closed the door, he sat down onto the bed with eyes wide open.

Idag, är det så mycket hysteri om musik hit och dit,

man kan lätt fastna i det där träsket där man tänker

"det låter okej, som allt annat."

Bara för att alla andra gör precis samma sak,

och då tycker man tillslut att det låter, tja, inte bra

men helt okej.

Därför,

är jag så lycklig att jag har hittat artister som tar sig ur det där.

För det här, mina vänner

är äkta musik, av äkta artister.

(ja, netlog jävlas igen)

"four vodka and redbull's please."
Even though they all were already drunk, aspecially the girls, Tom just had to go and get more drinks.
His friends, Gustav and Georg, were sitting along with them,
trying to make sence of their words in the loud music, wich was quite difficult.
He took the drinks and slowly began to walk back, smirking soft as he put them down on the table and sat down next to his two smiling brunettes,
they moved a bit to give him more space and he sighed soft
"I don't know about you, but I'm starting to get tired of this place..what do you say about going to our place instead ? After we've finished these drinks of course.." the girl who was sitting next to him whispered something to her friend who nodded eagerly. She turned back to Tom and crossed her legs with a hint smile, "we'd love to.."
He lifted his glass with a smirk, raising it up against the ceeling before he drank it all.

Bill slamed the door shut behind him and threw his jacket of,
shivering as he saw Josh infront of him in his mind,
his hidden smile,
curled hair..and his hands, "urgh..creep."
He thought about calling his mother again, but when he got up his phone and saw how late it was, he changed his mind.
She was probebly asleep by now, and he couldn't wake her up..
Bill walked into the livingroom, glancing at the sofa..the table..it all looked so empty,
it all seemed so quiet and..meaningless?
"Stop it." he told himself firm, there was no point to start acting like that now,
it wouldn't do him any good either.
He went into the bedroom and pulled his clothes of, watching himself in the mirror..
His long legs never seemed to end..
Bill fingered on his star tattoo, and wondered how it would feel like if someone else would do that..
"Tom." he said to himself and smiled half, "not Josh however, that's for sure."
He pulled a hand over his belly slow, and couldn't help but to smile.
That was the one part of him he actually was happy with, it was perfect.
Well, atleast as perfect as it could get..
The light lines that showed his ribs got even more visible as he breathed in,
Bill smirked soft and played with his nipple piercing for a while,
"kinky.." he said dull and chuckled at himself before he turned away from his reflection and went to get something more comfortable on.
When he had got the black sweatpants and the white hoodie on, he found his cigarettes and walked out on the balcony..
"I'm slowly becoming addicted to this..not good." he said but still put one between his lips, letting the smoke go through his lungs before he breathed out heavy, closing his eyes..
Bill sat down into one of the chairs and didn't even care to look if anyone was watching him.

"here we are, our own private little mansion.."
The girls laughed at Tom as they got out of the cab,
he payed him and waited for Georg and Gustav to come out with their company too.
As they walked into the hotell, he realised something.
"Oh crap, Bill."
Gustav came up next to him and put a hand on his shoulder
"I tried to tell you..but you're far too drunk to listen, my friend" he chuckled at him and went to the others.
Tom made a face but then he also followed..Bill was a big boy, he could take care of himself, right?
"That's the thing..I know he can't"
He took a deep breath and fumbled to get his phone up, slowly pressing in those numbers he knew inside out.
Tom struggled to keep the device by his ear as the signals started sounding..
Georg waved at him, telling him to get over there.
"Why...wont..you..answer?" he pulled the phone down and stared at it for a while,
but then he klicked the call away and put it down into his pocket again.
When he got over to the others, an elivator just came down and they all walked inside.
"Hey, I got an idea." Tom suddenly said out into the air
"We could go into Bill's room, he's not there..so he wont mind, right? And besides, his room is twice as big as any of ours" Gustav chuckled a bit and layd a hand around his girl,
Tom smirked soft and walked out the door as they got up on the right floor.
All seven fumbled through the corridor, laughing and walking into walls before they finaly reached the door.
"how will we...get in?" Georg said a bit quiet and came up next to him.
Tom turned to him and pulled a hand inside his shirt, taking out a spare key,
"I'm one step ahead of you.." then he unlocked the door and let the others in.
The girls roamed around the room, or..maybe that's not the right word,
since it was more like a apartment.
However, they walked around, gasping like it was the most incredible thing they'd ever seen..
Gustav sat down in the sofa with the redheaded girl he was with and Georg went after the others.
Feeling his head starting to spin, Tom walked over to the bedroom to check if his brother was there..
"Bill..?" he nocked a few times before he opened the door...but there was no one there.
Tom sighed a bit and closed it again, walking out to the others.
As he sat down into the sofa the girls and Georg came back, smiling down at him while they moved their long bare legs against him..
He smirked a bit and showed them to sit down next to him.
"Music, we..we need music" Gustav stood up and went over to the musicplayer, flipping through Bill's CD's..wich he knew he wasn't supposed to do, but he was drunk.
Tom let the girls get settled down into the sofa before he petted his chest, telling them to lain their heads against his chest..one of them blushed a bit while the other one obayed.
His smirk grew even bigger and he pulled a hand down her long hair..glancing at her body,
they were both really attractive, and he had trouble controling himself around hot girls..
"any words from Bill..?" Georg suddenly said against him, and Tom lifted up his shoulders
"nah, not even a whisper..but it's his own fault, he's missing one hell of a party."
They all laughed a bit and one of the girls pulled up one of the bags she'd been carrying around.
Putting loads of beers and a ginbottle on the table, Georg made a sound of exitement and reached out to get one.
Tom smirked soft and looked around , then the girl who was in his knee, suddenly sat up and put her face right infront of Tom's..
"well hello there.."

Bill jumped up in his chair a bit, looking around to see where he was.
"what the hell is that..?" he heard a loud beat of some sort of bad dance song coming from inside the room and he turned around in his chair and looked inside..
Swallowing hard and felt his nerves pulling together as he saw the croud of people in there.
He stood up and fixed his hair a bit.."He could have told me he was bringing..company"
Bill made a face and opened the door slow, walking into the room again..
Maybe he could just sneak by and get into the bedroom without them noticing..?
"hey! He IS here..where have you been hiding?" he glanced up at Gustav with a soft smile,
pulling a hand down his chest to make sure the shirt was fitting properly..
"I haven't been hiding.." Georg waved to him and he nodded to answer.
"you know..you do have rooms of your own for a reason."
His friends laughed at him and he could feel his face getting a bit red as he saw that the girls were staring at him.
"Hi, I'm Bill..do make yourself feel at home." His words reaked with sarcasm,
but it was the best he could do right now, since he just had spotted the girl in Tom's arms..
Bill swallowed hard and stared at them..what the hell was going on..?
Gustav went into the kitchen to get something and he could hear him looking around in the fridge.
He slowly walked pass Georg and put his hands into the pocket on his belly..glancing down at Tom again.
"this is..what is your name again?" Bill sighed and felt a lump growing in his chest,
he didn't like this at all..
"Sofi, my name is Sofi..you're brother knows how to charm a lady" she smirked soft and leaned back over him, Bill's eyes got wide open as she kissed him..
Her lips opened slow and Tom let her continue,
putting his arms around her waist as he started kissing her back..
Gustav chuckled light and drank the last of his beer.
Bill couldn't belive his eyes..he couldn't belive this,
he couldn't belive Tom would do such a thing..
Georg looked up at him and blinked a few times..
"we missed you at the club.."
He laughed cold as he started walking against the bedroom,
"you're so full of bullshit, when you're done screwing them in MY apartment, please get the hell out of here." he gave them all a firm look before he went into his room and slamed the door shut.

The rain hit hard against the windows,
making his reflection in them look all blurry..
He pulled a hand through his hair and sighed, he needed to shower..
needed to get all that hairspray out properly.
But he really loved this, just sitting alone for once..listening to the water drip down against the balcony floor,
watching all the people down there, who all seemed to be in such a hurry,
he figgured that it was because of the rain.
The croud of umberellas in every colour never seemed to stop either..
There was so much more people here than back in his hometown,
and he wasn't used to it, yet.
Bill took a deep breath and let himself slide down the wall, putting his legs up against the oposite one.
He started thinking about what he should do today, eccept showering,
he had do do s o m e t h i n g , he couldn't just sit there.
Feeling the need to, he got up and pulled in his shirt a bit. It was starting to get too small,
but it had been with him forever..he had so many memories conected to that shirt,
so throwing it away was not even a possibility, and besides
there was noone there but him, so there wasn't anyone who could complain really.
After he was done running around the room, searching for his lighter
Bill slowly opened the balcony door and went outside
shivering soft as the cold air hit his bare arms..
He made a little face and said with a high voice
"you're gonna catch a cold, put on a jacket silly boy!"

he smiled to himself, Bill missed his mother..
He decided to call her after he'd showered..
As his mouth got filled with the taste from his cigarette, Bill closed his eyes for a moment
Enjoying himself as his body got a bit numb..
"Tom's gonna kill me..but, I don't care" he smirked soft and took one last breath of it before he took a few steps out, putting the cigarette down in the ashtray, he listened to the little sound that came when the flame hit the small amount of water that had gathered there
and then he went in, closing the door slowly after him..feeling that need to shower again.

"Hello"

 He smiled as he heard his mothers femilliour light voice against his ear,
sinking down into the sofa with the robe tight around him
"Hi mom.." he said quiet and curled up into the pillows, he could hear her turn of something, he figgured it probebly was the TV..
"Oh, Bill! Hi my darling, how are you? My god, I really wasn't expecting your call...I'm sorry, let me just..get somewhere more private"

He listened as she said something to a man and then everything became very quiet..he was about to ask if she was still there when she came back
"There...now, how are you"
Bill started fingering on one of the pillows, wondering if he should take the time to re-paint them today..
"I'm fine, I guess..a bit bored, and you? I miss having you around.."

She let out a deep breath as she sat down in her bed, he knew, since it always made the same sound as you did..he had been sleeping there so many times before, so he practicly knew her bedroom inside out.
"Bored? I thought you where exited about going to..erh, america"

 She took a pause to think before she continued
"I knew Tom was..your brother has always wanted to go there. Talking about him, isn't he with you? Oh, that's why you're bored..he's snuk of somewhere without you, right" he chuckled soft and got a warm feeling through him, this was what he missed..
"No..or yes, I don't know where he is..but, we spend almost every day together..so I think it's good that he's taking a little time for himself..otherwise he might kill me"

She made a little sound
"He wouldn't, you couldn't possibly be THAT enoying"
he smirked soft and pulled the phone closer..
"But, I'm happy to hear that you two aren't driffting apart..not that I was expecting that, but you never know..new city, new ways"

Bill took a deep breath, and then he remembered what had happened yesterday
and couldn't help but to laugh a bit..getting a string through his spine, like a bolt.
"What? Did I say something"

He chuckled light and poked the pillow..
"No, but I agree..new city, new ways. But I guess I'm not used to everything here yet..I really have no idea what to do"

She made a little thinking noise and cleansed her throat
"Well, since I never been there..I know about as much as you do...but, you could ask your crew to go somewhere with you? They should know atleast a little about the city"

Bill nodded, but realised that she couldn't see him do that..
"Yeah..I guess I could do that..or I could just wait until Tom comes back and talk with him"

A small sound came into the phone and he heard a cat purring..he smiled soft
"She misses you..and your brother. But yes, you do that"
He got up from the sofa and stood infront of the mirror, pokeing his chin a bit..
"I'll let you get back to..what you were doing now, I don't wanna keep you"

She sighed soft into the phone and he could hear her stand up too
"You're not keeping me from anything, I'm so happy you called...and I wish I had more time to talk, but you see..there's someone here and..he can't be alone forever"

Bill made a face and pulled the robe even closer, then he closed his eyes and swallowed hard..
"I understand..You go, I'll call you soon again..thank you for talking to me, bye mom"

"Bye Bill, say hello to your brother from me, I love you"

He klicked away her and threw the phone against the sofa..
"Tom, please get home now"

Feeling his heart sink a bit as he looked at the door and noticed that it didn't magicaly open up all of a sudden he decided to go get dressed..

(eftersom att netlog.se vägrar berätta vad det är för ord i den här tredje delen av min fanfic som är otillåtet så får jag lägga upp den här, fuuu)